having a stinky day

sigh**....im done. Im tapping out...throwing in the towel....calling 'uncle'. Ive officially reached the turning point. "Sarah Kathryn...i love you darling...but you are about to get your eviction notice. You havent paid rent for 8 long months and i just cant do business like that. ! " :)
Im ready to have this baby...she may not be ready...but i am. Dont get me wrong...i want this little bun to be fully cooked and done in the belly oven...but ..hurry it up! I need a vacation....from my body. Im just waiting for the skin on my feet and fingers to bust like an over-cooked hot dog! Only about 5 to 6 more weeks.... i can do it...i hope. Today i went to the doctor....and she served me up some souring news.... Im about to have to tell one of my dearest and best friends that i cant make it to her most special day...her wedding.. I never ever thought it was even a slight chance that id miss her wedding day..! im supposed to be there for her...you are supposed to be there for your best friend since middle school on her wedding day...im sure it is a law or something.! i cried. and cried. and cried some more. Im just frustrated bc there is nothing i can do to fix it.. .! this is wedding # 2 i will be missing bc of being so preggy..my college roomie is getting married in just a few hours today...and theres an empty spot where i was going to be standing...! boo hiss grr. Stinky day. Ive had a stinky day. Im very thankful for Sarah k...i just really wish i could be there for my friends... They were there for me... ! so just keep me in your thoughts....im having a poopy day so far.! i gotta perk up...dont want s.k. to be feeling all blue! Plus...Lee and Jennifer are coming to visit today! yay! they'll be here in a few hours! nothin like some home-grown freinds to turn that frown upside down!