Ups and Downs

This is right after surgery.. :(

This is the morning after (fri. morning).

This was later in the day...sweet baby, having to try and play with the arm restraints on. :(..

Hi everyone...the surgery went well and Sarah Kathryn is doing a little better tonight. The first 24 hours or so after surgery were quite an adventure. Thats a nice way to put it. God doesnt give us more than we can handle thought, right? (although i was beginning to wonder) When we first got to see her after surgery..it broke my heart. she was so swollen..and confused. She didnt sound like my baby, she didnt act like my baby, she didnt smell like my baby... i wanted to fix it for her so badly. That is the hardest thing, to see your child hurting and scared and there was nothing i could do but hold her. And boy have i done that. I sat in the chair in the I.C.U. for at least 6 hours before she let me put her down. She was so mad and confused! She was moaning and crying from about 2 (when it was over) till about 8. She just could not get any relief and was fighting everyone that tried to touch her like a wild bull. (she gets that attitude from me..) Needless to say..i havent gotten much sleep...and neither has she.(clay wasnt allowed to stay in the icu..so i was sooo glad to see him this morning!)
Today got better and better as the day went on. The swelling got worse b4 it got better, but seems to be going down some. She is trying to figure out how to crawl w/ the arm restraints..she HATES those..but who wouldnt. She keeps wanting to hug her little glow seahorse she sleeps with and gets frustrated when she cant. She played some in the playroom today and had a good time. She looks so sad all the time bc she cant close her mouth yet from all the soreness and swelling...but clay managed to get a few half smiles from her later in the day when he gave her kisses. She has been a total daddy's girl ..(as always) and reaches out to him whenever he comes into the room. I know how she feels..he just has a way to make a girl feel safe. And we got to all come back to the hotel tonight...YAY.. ! im laying on a REAL bed ! :) i have a good feeling about tonight.. i think she will do fine.She is tired of being in that hospital room! we all are. She had a bath tonight and was loving it..and acting like the sweet SK we all know. She is sleeping now..and i hope that last a few hours so i can get a little rest. I feel like an old lady..dozing off anywhere.. whenever i get still enough. :) So all in all...SK is doing better and better as time goes by. Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts. Im sorry i couldnt text you all back or answer all of your calls, but i got them, and thank you! We will find out tommorrow how the surgeon thinks her mouth is looking..and when we will have to come back next month. GOOD NIGHT.....ahhhh.. a REAL bed.